The Healing

Many of us have absurd ideas of who we are. Many have been so hard on themselves about how life ought to be lived. When I was a young girl, I learned how to feel about myself and by the reactions of the adults around me. In a small town, where everybody knows everybody - life seemed too small. I felt the pressure of my Mom comparing me to another good daughter of her friend. I felt the uneasiness of living up with the expectations of my parents and the people around me. At a young mind, I have always been so stubborn. Although I don’t remember talking back to my parents but still in my mind- I allow myself to explore the possibilities of not being manipulated. But then, I was just a kid. I can’t depend on myself and all I know is that I need to listen to them.

In one way or another, I have created the image of myself as what my parents want me to be. Growing up, life becomes complicated. I have to handle things myself. It’s only me that I can rely on. I never allow my parents to define myself anymore. I always listen to my guts.

For one, the biggest miracle happened was to love myself first. I have let myself be healed from the wounds of my parents being so judgmental of me and my choices. I realize that no matter what happens- they will always be there. They were the first people who were there when I was in need of comfort.

I believe, loving oneself works miracle in our lives. I define love as:

• having great respect to oneself and gratitude to the miracles of our bodies, minds and spirit.
• an appreciation to such a degree that it fills my heart to outpouring of every little magic moments.
• a wonderful feeling of joys in being alive.
• seeing the beauty and wonders in another person.
• the gift of knowledge of knowing the good and the bad.
• the very process of LIFE itself.

While there are ways that can put ourselves to death bit by bit:

• We nag and criticize ourselves endlessly.
• We mistreat our bodies with junk foods, cigarettes, drugs and alcohol.
• We create illness and pain in our bodies.
• We procrastinate about things that would help us.
• We choose to believe we are not worthy to be loved.
• We deny our good in one way or another.

What we believe in ourselves becomes who we are. We are who we think we are, really. When we love ourselves, everything in our life will work harmoniously.