Thursday, June 25, 2009

Forbidden Love

There was a lot of noise coming out from the hallway. The two were sleeping and I felt a little sleepy too. The room’s smell made me drowsy- the sanitizers, the foods, the medicines. I reached unto my niece’s bed and leaned my head when that noise came in. The door opened and came 2 tall ladies, a guy and a kid. They brought bags of fruits and foods. I had never seen them before.

“Dad, how are you doing?” asked the other lady as she kissed my cousin’s husband.

I felt so small, so embarrassed but I can’t hide anymore. They never said “Hi” to me or to my niece who is lying on the other bed. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to go bury myself in the restroom but I don’t want to leave my niece.

They were talking for a while and laughing whilst we were 3 feet away, listening. They never bothered looking at us or to my niece. We were completely ignored. I wanted to cry because I felt so sorry for my niece but I can’t. I don’t know how else to handle the situation. It occurred to me that my older niece probably had known that they are coming and so she never came back to the room.

Finally, it’s time for them to leave. They gave him hugs and kisses and left the room without saying anything to us. Whew! That was a relief. There was silence for a while.

“You can open the can of biscuits and give her something to eat” he commanded as he pointed on the bags his kids gave him.

It was all so awkward but I just did what he told me to do. I was glad my cousin wasn’t there when they arrived. She was gone to process the documents for the police and for the insurance agency concerning the accident. Or perhaps, she already knew that his kids (legal wife) are coming to visit their Dad in the hospital.

That was one of the most uncomfortable moments of my life. I don’t blame his kids for hating us so much that they can’t even display civility. Of course, they felt my cousin stole their Dad away from them. And my cousin’s relatives felt like he ruined her life and her career. It’s no surprise to me that their theme song is “You and Me Against the World”. On top of it all, I can’t totally understand the depth of their love. I don’t want to put myself in a position where I felt I knew everything better than them. Honestly, I don’t really know; let alone explain the mysteries or misconceptions of Love. The whole scenario left my young heart so confused and yet, awakened. It was very complicated.
Shawie

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""rare*jonRez"" said...

Ahhh... too many forbidden love these days! Indeed, Sodom and Gomorrah had returned! Reminds me of the gov. of SC. Such a shameless act! Oh well, things will never get better in the last days, eh?

have a terrific thursday Shawie!

Warren Baldwin said...

I'm still new to your blog, but am learning some of the depth of struggle you have had to go through. That you have endured and done so well is evidence of God's hand in your life and your own strong stamina. God bless.